Some of our pictures from a WONDERFUL Summer!

Me and My sister Melody on the lake! Fun Day!

Disney on Ice...she was in HEAVEN!

Me after my 1st Marathon..I ran for LUPUS...for my Beautiful Mommy!

My sister and the kids on the Lake on July 4th! SUCH a fun time!

Lake Hamilton! Kids dared me to go tubing...I think I had more fun than they did!

MY SWEET PRINCESS ARABELLA ON HER 4TH BIRTHDAY!

Lazy Friday Night

So I have my good days, and I have my bad days, but being single is my choice, so I can not complain. I LOVE being a mother more than anything, and I love my children. The hardest part for me , is keeping a clean house, and getting dinner on the table. The older 2 have 2 soccer practices each a week and at least one game a week, Arabella has dance, so by the time we get home, it is time for homework, baths, dinner, cleaning, and all the other things that come up. So there are times I get pretty overwhelmed. This week, has been one of those weeks. I love a clean house. I am a very clean person, and sadly so...MY CHILDREN ARE NOT. They might be the dirtiest children on the planet...but tonight, I have decided I WILL NOT WORRY ABOUT IT. My kids are used to me coming home, and cleaning from top to bottom. I sometimes KNOW I need to stop, because their needs come before a clean house, but I tend to get really anxious if anything is dirty.....So I made a choice today...to go home, get the kids, and go get movies and snacks. We are going to have a movie night, and not do a single thing. I need the rest and I know they do as well...heck we have soccer games all day tomorrow, so they need all the rest they can get...BUT.... WHEN all the games are over, I am going to make my kids help me...which they NEVER do, and maybe that is one reason I get so overwhelmed, maybe if they see how hard it is to clean after them, they will stop being so messy..HAHA YEAH RIGHT....I am kind of getting excited about our little PJ party, with movies and junk food...MY KIND OF NIGHT! Gosh I love being a mom!!!!

Happy Birthday Slade

10 years ago today, I gave my heart away..to a little boy named Matthew Slade Farquharson!

I will never forget the day he was born. I was getting induced, and I had to be at the hospital at 6:00 a.m. I could not sleep, and finally got up at 3. For 2 full hours, I sat alone, in the dark, and cried. You see, I already had a 2 1/2 year old little girl who was perfect. I was so deeply in love with her, that I truly did not think I could love my son like I did her. I cried for him, I cried for me, and I cried to God. How could I possibly give him the love I already had for Sydney Claire? There is no way I could ever love another person the way I did my 1st born right? Well, I went in the hospital, terrified. I had a pretty good labor, but a terrible delivery. After pushing for 4 hours, I was done. And the Dr. could see it. His nurse gently told me that "The Dr. does a beautiful Forecep delivery"..In that second, the "mom" came out of me, and I said NO..Give me one more try...and the very next push he was out, and one second is all it took, for me to look at him, and realize something about me will never be the same. I FELL IN LOVE. I looked at his father who knew my struggle with worrying that I could not feel the same about him that I did our daughter, and with tears streaming down my face, I said "I LOVE HIM...I LOVE HIM SO MUCH"...That night, I would not let him go. I felt so much love for this little boy, and I knew he would have my heart.

10 years later..I love him more and more everyday! He is by far the sweetest little boy I have ever known.

My life is crazy. My life is exhausting. My life is NOT how I pictured it would be....but at the end of the day, I can take one look at my children, and know, I AM SO BLESSED.

Happy Birthday to my perfect son. I am so proud of you, and the young man you have grown into. You make me smile when I do not think I have a smile left in me.

And thank you God for making him mine!